29 days into 2016 and here I am, sat at a busy Starbucks trying to churn out a research paper on a Friday night and having some kind of epiphany whilst I was people watching. How did I get here? Didn’t I just ring in the New Year in a completely different country, with a completely different group of friends, drinking cheap Australian wine and getting completely hammered?
I considered 2015 to be the year where I had to brave through a shit hurricane that was my life. Before 2015, I was relatively normal and sane. I had no depressing moments nor anxiety attacks before that. You see, before 2015, my self-esteem was slowly making its climb back up to what you call, the “normal ranks” before it plummeted down beyond saving. After what was a year of experiencing the shit hurricane that tore through my life, I could probably compare my year to Jersey Shore. Trashy as hell and certainly just a general shit storm (but still addictive to watch).
In the past year (and early 2016), I have reconsidered my life ambition (and career), fallen out with a few friends, got back together with old friends, made new friends, gotten into the path of a scorned (ex)
lover, met a couple of douchebags/assholes, went on new adventures, gotten a part-time job which I love as well as seriously thought about not coming back home and living life as a hobo after the amazing time I had Down Under. Yeah, it was pretty much an eventful year for me although I’m really glad that it’s over. Without further ado, here’s what I learnt from 2015 (and early 2016) in which a shit hurricane blazed through my entire life.
1. Stop keeping your feelings to yourself, say what you feel.
In the past year, I have kept everything that had upset me deep inside my heart. I didn’t talk to anyone about it nor did I indicate that I was upset at something. So naturally, people walked all over me. When the fireworks rang in on New Year’s, I made a promise to myself that I would never let that happen again. So I started speaking my mind, but the downside to that was, I was also labelled as a bitch. But hey, that’s okay! I rather be a bitch who speaks her mind than be walked all over again.
2. You can make plans and be really organized, but be prepared for life to throw its flaming balls on you and burn your life to the ground.
I am by nature a really organized person, I like things to be placed where they are supposed to be, I make lists for everything and anything (Side note: I made an entire packing list for when I was preparing to go to Australia and I naturally overpacked) and I always need to know what I am supposed to be doing, where it’s supposed to be and where. I had an entire plan drawn out for what 2015 was supposed to be like for me but obviously it didn’t go as planned. I originally freaked out, but now, I’ve learned to sit back and loosen my grips on life (just a little bit).
3. Money is the root of all evil but having a savings account is a necessary part of being a “responsible adult”.
Saving money is an important process of turning into an adult. Go to the bank or speak to an adult who is successfully adulting, they’re going to tell you the same thing. I made a promise to myself to not center my life around money in the early days of 2016, but having a savings account is important for me to achieve and continue living the standard of life I currently have. Saving requires a ton of discipline but you should have a goal towards what you’re saving for. As for me, I think about how many burritos I can buy with all the money I have saved. And getting that Audi R8 Spyder could be pretty sweet too but that’s obviously out of reach, for the time being.
4. Never underestimate the power of prayer.
As I sat pondering over the mess that I call my life, I remembered one thing that I haven’t turned to in years. This could also be why I am in such a mess right now. I turned to God and turned to the power of prayer. I spoke to God while I was in a mess of tears in bed and lo and behold, my answer came the next day and I felt peace spreading through me. God is and will always be there for you, no matter how far away you drift from Him.
5. Take charge of your life, you are in control of it.
Decide each day how you want your day to turn out like when you wake up. Recently, I have woken up in the morning and will tell myself that my day will be wonderful and no douche can ruin it. And so far, it has worked. How your life goes depends on how you make of it. So, tell yourself positive things and positive things will start happening.
Bonus: Don’t be afraid to love, even when you’ve been hurt or if it’s not reciprocated.
2015 was the year when my love life went down the toilet. Admittedly, I was afraid to love again. After the whole scorned ex-
lover debacle, I had to deal with the dark side of me that would scare anyone away. I started to love myself again after being repeatedly insulted with every single derogatory remark known to mankind. I learned to love everyone around me, no matter how undeserving they are of my love (Sidenote: I will still love an individual for themselves no matter how much they have hurt me or whether or not this love has been reciprocated. It’s dumb but it’s not in me to give up on anybody). And I started to heal from within. So my chickens, don’t be afraid to love, love is a powerful thing.
While I thought of 2015 and early 2016 to be a mess, I am eternally grateful for all of the life lessons that has been handed to me. I hope the rest of 2016 is ready for me, because I am ready to be the alpha female and kick its ass.